The old cry I should be doing paper work.  I will soon.  I took Niblet to the groomer and he shook like a leaf and crappe on the floor. He has only been there one time before and I wonder what they did to him to have him so scared.  I am fightingthe urge not to go bnack and rescue him but he does need the grooming. I do believe it will be the last time he is groomed at this place however.  Ihope all the Xanganites are doing well.

Love Eve

Too many this year, I spent time in the Northwest and wished I had never left, I listened to a memeorial and hoped I could maybe be as well remembered someday.  I haven't earned it yet and probably won't too mean and bitter really to be remembered so positively.

I was glad to come home though and be in my own space. I hope I can remember something important and hold on to it past this message.

Jacob was very good with all the running we had to do planes rented cars taxis and shuttles even a short subway ride at the airport.

guess i need a great big new scary thing going on in my life I have got the blahs again.  This is ridiculous.  Now I know I'm sick of paper work etc.etc. but come on I just bought a beautiful new house why this dead feeling.  I can't even call it depression I'm not sad I'm not even bored its like this damn fog slowing my thoughts down.  Not quite apathy certainly not calm just a buzzing whir in the background distracting me. I keep jumping up and pacing.  No reason.

Se La I suppoe if all I have to gripe about is a strange feeling of out of sortness that doesn't go away I am doing good in life. Finish the damn paper work pretend I feel competent and move on. and keep on moving on. I,m moving on now.  Rt. now.